Ok, so it’s time for a new approach.
This week has been bad. I have really struggled, and I may have engaged in circular dialogue with Craig, ended up a total mess, and had to resort to straight whisky.
No more drinking alone.
No more trying with him.
The new plan is to simply be awesome, and while I feel nowhere close to awesome, I’ll just pretend.
I still love him, and I hate this and don’t want to do life like this.
But too bad.
Step 1. Get my body back. That means going to the Drs, doing hormone treatment, drinking water and eating mostly unprocessed again. I know what’s good for me and I haven’t been doing it, which is fucking stupidity because I have had quite enough health problems. I have been drinking more calories in booze, coffee and shakes than I have been eating and that is ridiculous.
Step 2. I am going to be so fucking polite and proffessional with Craig that his head will spin. A close friend very honestly told me that he probably loves it when I tell him I want us back, blah blah blah. And she’s probably right, he probably does like knowing I still love him and that he could walk back into our life if he chose to. So fuck feeding his arrogance and ego anymore.
Step 3. My horses are coming back in a fortnight and they will be getting worked, and worked properly. No paddock ornaments here. I will be getting my riding mojo back and it will be awesome. And it will help with step 1. And there will be photos π
Plus Rays of Light is going to help me think of other reclaiming awesomeness activities, and also how to subtlely show Craig the awesome that he now has to miss out on π
Awesome π π
Happy Friday!
x
Sounds like a great plan. Look forward to seeing the horses! They are beautiful animals. Once you start focusing on other things the old relationship will become background noise.
I certainly hope so!! Thanks so much for te support :)x
I normally talk to you in person honey but just thought i would post here today because i think that
this plan is AMAZING!!! And i will support you with anything if you need me too!!!
**HUGS**
SJ
OMG you commented!
Thanks so much hun, sorry I have been mia lately, all I have been good for is school runs, work and sooking. I know you understand but I know I should have been in touch.
But prepare for the awesomeness!
:)x
Great plan! Do it uuuuup!
Bahaha thankyou hun! :)x
Get your mojo on girl. π and have a great weekend!
It’s on and I am rocking the LONG weekend here! :)x
Can’t wait to see the awesome!
And glad you’re doing it for you!
*snigger* well 90% for me anyway :Px
first step is we need to be healthy, no more bad foods or alcohol. Second, … well im still researching the rest.
Bahaha ‘researching’ love it! :)x
Ps accept the invitation or you wont b able to see my blog anymore, made it private because wanted to stay anonymous. You’re the only one that actually knows me that reads my blog now π
OK hun I will do that x
I wish the best for you. π
Thanks Jamie! x